16.07.2011
It's been over 2 months since he left, but the pain still feels fresh. I don't wanna talk too much about this. Because the more I talk, I feel more hurt. So, let's move on and searching new happy things. Ha ha ha! How funny when I talked something like 'move on' but my heart still stuck in the same place. It's like won't go anywhere. And if I push it too hard, I feel more and more hurt. So, I decided to let it flow. I don't know what happen next, nobody knows, but now I try to make my present as beautiful as I can. One thing I know that I do not need a reason to be angry with God, 'cause I know there must be something positive in this situation. Someone says; "there's a 'good' in goodbye." My brain says; "Yes, it is!" But my heart says; "Is there any good?" Brain vs heart = World War III. HAHA!
There's a quote from Eclipse movie:
"This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love, a lot. Major in Philosophy, because there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind and change it again, because nothing is permanent. So, make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask what we wanna be, we won't have to guess. We'll know." -Jessica
From that quote I learned something that we never know if we never try. And never forget the word 'someday', 'someday' will give you a surprise, an unexpected things, just pray and keep the faith in the heart. Believe everything's gonna be alright.
I just remembered a little conversation with my bestfriend:
Me : "Love will find a way."
He : "But, Love will find you if you try."
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Me : "Ok, I'll try my best if I find someone worth to fighting for."
He : "And learn from your mistake."
Me : "Yes, I will!"
SMILE! and BELIEVE! and NEVER SAY NEVER!
Enough talk.
